Weekend

 Hello from chemo town.

Emma went with me on Thursday.  We mapped out plans for a trip in June.  We played Skip Bo.  We did some NYTimes crossword puzzles.  (I told her that her dad was always responsible for the clues about sports so that was her responsibility...she didn't do very well with that, but she knew a lot of other stuff.)

Felicia, in our ward, brought over a very simple and soothing dinner of Costco rotisserie chicken, roasted potatoes, green beans and fruit.  People really know what they're doing.  It was all just perfect.  I really appreciate the kind people who bring me dinner on chemo day.

Adam got home that night--I was already asleep, but I woke up and we talked and he rubbed my back.

Friday we went back for more chemo.  Adam went to Maverik for the requisite drinks to combat the intense Benadryl.  After he returned, I was trying to get him up to speed on the travel plans and Emma would interrupt and correct me and I would say, "That is what I said," when it really wasn't.

I was super discombobulated and kept repeating what she said in an effort to be correct. She said,"Chemo makes you gaslight me."

By then I had no idea what any of the dates were and I said, "I have a lot of Benadryl in me!"

The nurse was there switching something out and laughing about our conversation.  She probably hears versions of it a lot.

Friday is always a shorter day.  We packed up and went to Kneaders and I had soup and bread.  It hit right.  I am learning what to eat and not to eat. 

In the afternoon, I was super sleepy but couldn't sleep.  It was kind of miserable because I was too tired for even reading.  It's like my body had powered down and I just needed to wait it out.  I finally took an hour long nap, which revived me a bit.

An exciting development that was the backdrop of our weekend, was that Anna went into labor!  I wanted more than anything to be there, but alas.

We checked updates all day long.

Emma said, "You know how there are four star generals?  I'm going to be a two star aunt."  So I guess that makes me a two star Nana.  I'll take it.

On my blog, his sister is QE, as in the Queen of Everything.  He will be the Young Prince.  YP.  We loved him before he was born.

We are taking a quick trip to visit next weekend.  I'll miss one day of school.  I miss SO much school.  I wish I could go for longer, but this will have to suffice until spring break when we will likely go again.

Anna's mom, Amy, flew there to be with them.  She was reading a book to QE when Braeden texted the news.  Amy read QE the text, QE squealed happily and then said, "Keep reading."

Girl loves books.  

She will also be a good big sister.  She is very astute and helpful and I can see her staring down any future bullies with success.  As the happy recipient of a fabulous big sister myself, I can see all the signs of greatness.

We drank up every picture and video we got from the little family, halting every conversation if a text came in.  Going there on Saturday isn't a day too soon. 

They sent a video of QE meeting YP for the first time.  She hesitantly walked into the hospital room, holding tight to Braeden's hand.  She was mostly interested in seeing Anna and showing her the picture she had drawn.  Then, Braeden sat down close by, holding YP.  QE looked over at him and simply said, "Hi." 

Siblings are one of the biggest constants in your life.  Those two will mean the world to each other.  I love that I got to see that first, "hi."  

I had kind of a drab day on Sunday.  I felt sick--nauseous and exhausted.  I decided that one thing I felt like eating was a grilled ham and cheese sandwich so Adam pivoted away from what he was going to make and made me that instead.

He's good to me!

Emma came over and we ate and played one round of Skip Bo.  Someone asked if we wanted to play again and Adam said, "Your mom looks tired."

I was. 

I slept for almost twelve hours last night.  It is just remarkable to me that I can do that!  Today I have big plans.

Watch the plants grow (it isn't as riveting as it sounds...).

I also have a good book to read.