Chemo, day 1

 Nobody wants to need chemo.  I start today.

I am intimidated and kind of dreading it and I will be glad when it is over.

I decided to challenge myself to see if I could think of 10 positive things about the experience:

1- I am finally starting my treatment!  This is what I need to feel better and to heal.

2- I get to sit down the entire day.  (Which I usually hate, but yesterday I felt sick and kind of dizzy at times and sitting down seems like a good idea.)

3- I have things to keep me occupied.  I have books to read and my cross-stitch and an audio book and the Follow Him podcast and music to listen to.  My bag is packed and I really have a wealth of activities.

4- After this I will have a better idea of what to expect:  knowledge is power.

5- I have seen over and over the goodness of people.  Last night my ministering sister and friend, Molly, dropped off a care package including a cozy red hoodie.  She already crocheted a beautiful red blanket for me.  (She texted Adam to ask him my favorite color.). Molly is preparing to donate a kidney next week because a man in our ward needs one.  If I could be more like Molly, I would be very happy.

6- I have a really great sub who I trust completely.  And my students like her too.

7- Some of my students hugged me good-bye yesterday.  And one of my favorites from last year sought me out and hugged me too.  She doesn't know I needed her hug, but I did.

8- My doctor's office is minutes from our house.  What a gift!

9- Speaking of gifts, I am grateful for the prayers of people who love me.  I couldn't ask for more.

10- I get to spend the entire day with Adam.  (It could be up to 8 hours.)  I'm grateful for Adam.  And more than just time with him.  He is exactly who I need.  Always.  I didn't know when I married him that he would be really good at having a wife with cancer, but here we are.