Truth and light

 I am always (always) so tired.  I go to bed tired and I wake up tired.  I always have a sore throat.  I always have pressure/rushing in my ears.  I am sometimes dizzy and sometimes nauseous and sometimes have a headache.

 Still.

I am overwhelmed by the fact that I am doing this.  It is so hard and some days are downright miserable, but I am doing this.  

I have so much help.  Priesthood blessing and prayers sustain me and hold me up.

I am so grateful for my family and friends, their support and prayers.  

Yesterday my cousin Margaret texted me.  She has hard won empathy and I was so grateful to hear from her.

Also yesterday, the school counselor asked me pointedly how I was and I finally told her.  We had such a good conversation.  It merged from counselor talk to talking about prayer and the temple.  (I love living and working in Utah County.)

I felt taller after talking to her.

In John 14, Jesus tells the disciples, "I will not leave you comfortless."

I have also not been left comfortless.

I just got home from my PET scan.  It was a surreal experience.  (All of this sort of is.  I feel like I am living in a Salvador Dali painting.)  The hospital has a brand new PET scan that they share with other facilities so it is a mobile unit.  I walked into a trailer with radioactive warning signs everywhere.  

And then they put the radioactive stuff in me!  Did I light up like a Christmas tree?  I guess time will tell.

The technician was very kind as they all are and I got through it.  Adam took me and then Mark switched him out.

I told them both that I could drive myself and they wouldn't hear of it.

For the rest of the morning I'm going to regain my bearings (eat, for example) and then I will go to school for the afternoon.