It is no surprise to me that I fell in love with Adam when we were writing letters to each other. I fall in love with him all over again whenever I read something he's written. For my last story in this month of 31 stories, I am posting something Adam wrote and posted on his own blog on March 9, 2011. It's probably my favorite thing he's ever written. It encapsulates everything wonderful about Adam. Adam is a man with a creative soul. He is a terrific father who learned from the best, his own terrific father. He is a man with a deep strength--and not just the piano moving variety, though he has that too. Adam is my anchor in the world.
And his writing makes my heart sing.
I arrived home from work with just enough daylight and just enough
Spring to mow the lawn. Braeden and I reveled in the straight lines and
greening blades. "It's the awakening," he said.
—
I sat in the temple and smiled at the sight of Emma and Braeden sitting
side by side, quiet and content. Outside the temple, we stared up at
the stained glass, the angel, the glowing walls. I asked Emma how she
felt. "Light and airy," she replied.
—
Driving home from the airport, I listened to my mother describe her trip
to Disneyland with Megan, Talia and Jackson. "If your dad were still
alive..." she began to say. For the first time, I smiled and laughed
instead of fighting back tears.
—
Awake.
Light.
Laugh.
Alive.
Again.
—
Everyone is asleep. I sit down to write. I don't cry. I don't turn
away. It's a change. I can write again, at last. But it's not the
same as Before. Everything seems different now that I live in After.
Eighteen months since he left. My father. There was a last goodbye. A
last hug and kiss. A last "thank you" from him, though it should have
been from me. I did not know until a few hours later that they would be
the last.
I did not know until he was gone that part of what I thought was me, was
really him. I didn't know how much I relied on him. How much he
lifted me.
He wasn't really gone, though, was he? No. I didn't have to search for
the answer. There was no crisis. No need to wonder, to question.
That part of me remained. The part that is assured. The part that
loves and longs. The part that knows. The part that sees me through
After and waits for Again.
—
"It's the awakening," he said.
Again.
3 comments:
Loved this.
That is so good. It makes me cry.
So beautiful.
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