There's nothing to do at a time like this but write a list.
Here are things that redeem being tired, freaked out, too short to change lightbulbs and unproductive:
✩ homemade bread--it makes the house smell wonderful and I love it
✩ the seat heaters in my van
✩ library books
✩ walks (see above)
✩ our fireplace
✩ our children love me...sometimes I think more than I deserve then I remember that I carried them inside me for 9 months, I gave birth to them, I have helped keep them alive and clothed and fed for all these years so no, they probably do not love more than I deserve...
✩ Adam loves me...sometimes I think more than I deserve
✩ this morning I heard birds singing
✩ also this morning, I start with a clean slate just like every day...maybe today I will show that to do list who is boss